My Decline in Writing Poetry

Some have wondered why I have written less or seemingly stopped writing all together for the last couple of years. In an effort to open up, I'll explain my mentality.


From my child to young adult years, I was a counsel to others. I helped others when they were down, whether that be with relationships, parents, peer pressure, or loneliness. Also, at that time, I was going through my own storms and looked at those same people to relate to. However, as time went on, I found that poetry was the best way I was able to express myself. It gave me so much freedom and release and felt so good. Finally I had a way to say everything I wanted to in my own way and others would be able to understand once they read it. At the beginning, I couldn't help but write. It grew from my loneliness and pain into social issues that I saw. Because I knew pain, I was able to identify it in others and why they felt it. From 2005-2007 I tried to inspire people's minds to think about how they treated one another while addressing my own needs to express mine own issues. I wrote over 100 poems, sharing many of them on MySpace and Facebook, hoping that people would not only read them, say they were "deep", and move on, but evaluate themselves and others and actually move to make a difference.

But around 3 years ago, things changed. I found my lady and I could no longer write the same words I used to; I didn't feel the same way about life. Also, I lost contact with my fellow poets and thought provokers. I read less and was less inspired. Most importantly, I felt like people weren't listening to, paying attention to, or even considering my literature. I felt like my words were falling on deaf ears, like I was wasting my time. Call it a misguided form of attention or what have you, but I found myself not needing and falling out of love with poetry.

Currently, I somewhat still feel the same way, but in my preparation for this blog, I received such warm reception that I feel like I have an audience again. So don't be surprised if a couple of works squirt out in the near future. Hopefully you understand better why I haven't been writing as much. If you have any input, thoughts, or just want to say something, feel free to leave a comment (you don't need an account, you can leave an anonymous comment). See you guys later.